Tuesday, 31 December 2013

La vie d'Adèle - Chapitres 1 et 2

“You tell your story. It’s your truth”.
(from La vie de Marianne, as read in Adèle’s class)
Marivaux’ La vie de Marianne is the book that Adèle (Adèle Exarchopoulos) is reading in her literature class. She will later state that she doesn’t enjoy the detailed and focused analysis, being questioned to take the text apart, but she enjoys the novel for the emotions it conveys – and yet, the teacher’s attempt to steer his students towards an interpretation seems relevant for what will soon happen to Adèle herself. The idea of “predestinations of encounters”, of filling an empty space in the protagonist’s heart, comes back to haunt her, and it’s an interesting choice for a film that so explicitly attempts to portray something that is, within the narrative, dismissed as almost impossible. For Adèle, the novel resonates, it absorbs her, in that way in which literature and art can fill that empty place and help to make sense of things – and in this case, it’s like a premonition of things to come. 
Adèle seems to be drifting, forever narrowly missing her bus to school, not being able to tame her hair, going along when her friends push her towards a guy who is interested in her, even though they have nothing in common, while the film subtly adds nuances to her character and her life – her parents, the way Adèle approaches every aspect in her life with passion, even if the expression of that passion is limited to how she eats dinner for now. Everything changes when she catches a glimpse – and that’s all it is, a glimpse of blue – of a blue-haired girl on a crossing, which leaves her so distraught and shaken to her core that she only barely escapes the cars. The girl turns around for a moment but is then lost to her, but also forever caught in her imagination, as some bits and pieces of her self fall into place. The earth-shaking, life-changing quality of that emotional realization is captured perfectly, and it colours every scene that follows. The blossoming relationship with the boy pales, and Adèle is obviously less affected by him and his devotion to her than she was by that small moment on the crossing; a fantasy of that girl (again, a glimpse of her hair) seems more passionate than her first time with the boy. It’s an essential “not quite” moment, where something doesn’t work out, regardless of how nice he is – but for Adèle, the process of finding herself, realizing something about herself and understanding herself, has started the moment she caught that glimpse, and she can’t help but pursue that truth now. 
And she does, even if it’s difficult. A female friend kisses her and she seems to be ready and enthusiastic to embrace that opportunity, and her devastation is obvious when the other girl later tells her that it was a meaningless, spur of the moment thing, that neither of them should talk about. The disappointment leaves her more confused and desperate than breaking up with the boyfriend did, and she goes to a gay bar with her best friend – the way she tentatively navigates the new territory obvious in Adèle’s face, the uncertainty and wonder at new world that she is about to discover, and she ends up running into Emma (Léa Seydoux) there. It’s the teacher’s predestination of encounters (“no such thing as chance”, says Emma), a series of events that are now unstoppable. Regardless of the fact that they are divided by age, that Emma at that point is in a relationship with someone else, that Adèle’s friends react with extreme hostility, they are drawn to each other. La vie d’Adèle is about Adèle (in a way, the two different titles do work – La vie d’Adèle is Adèle as the subject, it’s her subjective story, Blue is the Warmest Colour is Emma as the object of that story, the flash of blue, but also never the person that is explored any further) – Adèle’s attraction to Emma, the immediate falling in love, but also how falling in love with Emma becomes part of her identity, of her making sense of herself. She falls into it with the same passion and abandon that she used to have for eating, there is no hesitation or doubt, no uncertainty, not even awkwardness, despite the fact that Emma is more experienced than she is. 
There is a discussion within the film about whether “pleasure can be shared”, if it is a highly subjective feeling that everybody experiences differently – which raises the question of how and if it can be captured on film – and also, if men trying to depict female pleasure ultimately only depict their own fantasies rather than the truth of the characters that they are portraying, and whether the film succeeds on that level again is a highly subjective question that every viewer will need to answer for themselves – in a way, the scene itself works perfectly because it’s a discussion that takes place in the background, while the focus is on Adèle herself not taking part in it, like it isn’t relevant to her because she isn’t analytical, but emotional, and feels more comfortable at her own party once she gets to discuss the ingredients of her pasta rather than talk art theory with Emma’s friends. 
I’d argue that the explicit and long sex scenes serve an important purpose, because without them, an essential part of the story would be missing. They show Adèle making sense of her desires after she meets Emma, something falling into place that was missing before. There is also a balance in their relationship obvious during the sex scenes that is missing in the other scenes. They have different aims in life, as is revealed in the two family dinners we witness, they come from completely different backgrounds, even if that fact is never directly confronted and doesn’t seem to bother either of them, but they are on equal terms when it comes to sex from the beginning, this is without a question a part of their relationship that works (but significantly, in the end, it’s not enough for the relationship itself to survive – and this is one of the questions Adèle will later ask Emma about her new one). It’s important for everything that follows, because of the different things that contribute to their relationship falling apart, and them no longer being intimate with each other (and Adèle needing that intimacy and passion in her life so desperately that she tries to find a replacement somewhere else, even if it’s never mean to be a replacement for Emma herself) signifying that everything else is wrong as well. Emma withdraws emotionally long before they have that fight, and the second half of the film is filled with moments that navigate around the cracks in their relationship – while before that, the differences between them didn’t seem to be relevant. Adèle managed to charm Emma’s parents, even though they were surprised at how certain she is about her path in life, Emma dealt with the questions about her future plans from Adèle’s, who couldn’t imagine being an artist without any other securities. The fact that Adèle isn’t open about her relationship to her parents and her co-workers doesn’t become a breaking point in their relationship until other things are wrong as well – Adèle seems content in the nourishing role, obviously lightening up whenever she is with the children, brilliant at it, while Emma insists that she must want more from life and aspire to a different kind of happiness – as an artist, she doesn’t understand how someone who doesn’t express herself artistically (at least not publicly, the way Emma does) can be happy and content. The film captures the smaller things as well, Adèle feeling out of depth with Emma’s friends, later telling her that they intimate her, not being able to contribute to a discussion about Schiele and Klimt (because, as she’s said before, she doesn’t like to dissect art, she just enjoys it for the emotions it conveys), and instead playing the graceful host brilliantly, but not becoming part of Emma’s world. This misunderstanding between them, and Emma’s inability to understand Adèle, and to value the way she does express herself – and to take her seriously when she tells Emma that just being with her like this is what makes her happy - is what drives her away from Adèle, who only notices the sudden distance, and desperately grasps at an opportunity to find that warmth again. 
Adèle is so immersed in the relationship, and it is such a profound part of her identity, that she never conceives of the possibility of them breaking up. In a conversation during the party with an actor she seems to realize for the first time that the question of them having kids might become important and a breaking point for them. 
Emma starts spending hours with another woman who, and she mentions this explicitly, also paints, and Adèle stops turning down invitations to go out with a colleague, and once Emma finds out about it, it gives her an opportunity to break up that isn’t about being unfulfilled or the dissatisfaction that she seems to be feeling, but puts the blame squarely on Adèle. It’s a brutal and utterly devastating scene (because Adèle’s adult life is built around Emma – “Where do I go without you?”). 
At this point, Blue is the Warmest Colour captures another truth perfectly: Life doesn’t stop, regardless of the fact that Adèle visibly suffers, retracing her steps by going back to the significant bench, sleeping there, as time passes, falling into a hole that moment she is unobserved, but still, she grows and changes (as signified by her hair and her choice in clothes), she becomes more assertive at work as she takes on new responsibilities. The pain stays with her – and when she invites Emma to meet with her, years later, they are still so close that they don’t talk to each other like strangers. There probably isn’t one answer to what Adèle is trying to achieve – to get Emma back, to find closure – or what she actually does find, when Emma tells her that she doesn’t love her anymore but that she will always have “infinite tenderness” for her. 
In the end, after going to one of Emma’s exhibition and still seeing herself there, on the walls of the gallery, it’s unclear if Adèle does find closure. The same song plays, as she escapes again from a place where she doesn’t feel she belongs, that was in the background of her first catching a glimpse of Emma on that street crossing. It’s two chapters in her life, not the finished book. 

2013, directed by Abdellatif Kechiche, starring Adèle Exarchopoulos, Léa Seydoux, Salim Kechiouche, Aurélien Recoing, Catherine Salée.

Favourite books I've read this year


Monday, 30 December 2013

Last Tango in Halifax - Table of Contents

Series One. 

Series Two: 

Last Tango in Halifax – Forever is a mighty long time.

Last Tango in Halifax: 2x06. 


South Sudan

The international media have reported unvarnished an appalling series of events, portraying another African tragedy of epic proportion in the making. The Guardian described South Sudan as ‘the state that fell apart in a week’. What readers glean from these reports is an inter-ethnic conflict between Dinka and Nuer.
The ethnic dimension to the conflict is undeniable: in the capital, Juba, as reported, elements of the presidential guard, the Tiger battalion of the Sudan People’s Liberation Army (SPLA), killed hundreds of Nuer, producing a backlash in the form of Koung, Gadet and Lou Nuer targeting Dinkas in Bentiu, Bor and Akobo. But this overlooks the political factors at root of the conflict, too easily misread as just yet-another-ethnic-war-in-Africa. 
openDemocracy: South Sudan: explaining the violence, December 29, 2013
BBC News: South Sudan crisis: Voices from Juba, December 20, 2013
NY Times: Political Strife in South Sudan Sets Off Ethnic Violence, December 21, 2013
openDemocracy: South Sudan: grim legacy of neglect, December 22, 2013
The Guardian: South Sudan: the state that fell apart in a week, December 23, 2013
The Washington Post: The world’s newest country is already on the brink of civil war. Here’s how it happened., December 23, 2013
The Guardian: South Sudan government agrees to ceasefire as 120,000 flee fighting, December 27, 2013
The Guardian: Eyewitness: Juba, South Sudan, December 28, 2013

Monday, 23 December 2013

Under wraps

Judge Leon’s decision is important for at least two reasons. First, it shows the inadequacy of the secret, one-sided review that has until now been the NSA program’s only oversight. From 2006 to 2013, fifteen different judges on the secret Foreign Intelligence Surveillance Court reviewed the program and every one of them deemed it lawful. But they did so in proceedings closed to the public, and in which they heard from no one representing the hundreds of millions of Americans whose privacy is at stake. Now that the program has been disclosed and subjected for the first time to public adversarial testing, it has been declared unconstitutional. Secret, one-sided proceedings are rarely a good way to decide fundamental issues of constitutional rights. 
The New York Review of Books: The NSA on Trial, December 18, 2013 
If nothing else, Judge Leon’s decision was a powerful critique of the secret court that supervises the program. He noted that 15 judges of the court, the Foreign Intelligence Surveillance Court, have issued 35 orders authorizing it, even as the government “repeatedly made misrepresentations and inaccurate statements about the program.”
Barry Friedman, a law professor at New York University who is at work on a book on the Fourth Amendment, said that only Judge Leon’s work was worthy of a federal judge.
“Judge Leon’s reads as though there is a living, breathing, thinking person behind it,” he said. “Right or wrong ultimately, it is full of detail, real-world fact and serious consideration. The FISA court opinions are lifeless. They read like a machine wrote them.” 
NY Times: After Ruling Critical of N.S.A., Uncertain Terrain for Appeal, December 17, 2013

Saturday, 21 December 2013

Last Tango in Halifax – Don’t tell me something you’re gonna regret.

Last Tango in Halifax: 2x05.

I don’t know why but whenever I write a review of something, I try to find themes in the episode that will at least provide me with a first sentence or even paragraph, and it’s never really worked too well with Last Tango in Halifax, even though the separate stories, whatever they may be, never give the impression of not being connected. It’s just that in terms of emotions, this show is so honest and true, and that truthfulness is the connective thread between whatever happens to Celia, Alan, Gillian and Caroline, and the people surrounding them. Family, and the struggle to find a place in it, or to extend it, or to break free from harmful previous bonds, is what the show is about, amongst other things – or maybe, more succinctly, what family means, beyond the biological bond.
As far as themes go, the fifth episode of the now nearly finished second season seems to have a thread running through it. All of these characters carry past wounds around with them, and it determines how they approach new relationships – Caroline opened up to Kate about how her mother’s unhappy marriage affected her emotional ability to be in a romantic relationship, Celia herself repeatedly thinks about what life would have been like if she had married Alan when she was young rather than Kenneth, Gillian is carrying a dark secret around with her (the extent of which is revealed in this episode) that seems to colour everything that she does, and Alan carried part of this secret as well, entirely alone, until he chose to tell Celia. Each of these characters has made choices about whom to share their burden with; Caroline knows how unhappy her mother’s marriage was, Alan was complicit in part of the cover-up of Eddie’s death, Gillian told Alan about what she might have done, had an opportunity to end her unhappiness arrived.
But some secrets haven’t been revealed at all, to anyone. Three months after the last episode, the preparations for the wedding haven’t really advanced, and after some time, Gillian and Caroline realize that the reason isn’t the organisational complications related to Alan’s brother Ted, and his thirteen grand-children, who live in New Zealand, but Celia’s reluctance to invite her sister Muriel to the wedding. Knowing that her father is upset about things not moving along more quickly, Gillian decides to intervene, and signs herself and Caroline up for the task of organising the wedding – and Caroline herself accidentally escalates the situation with Muriel, when she calls her and realizes too late that Celia hasn’t spoken to her yet, that she’s not even heard about Alan. Caroline knows the possible reason for why her mother and her aunt have fallen out years ago, since Celia, after the missed date with Alan and before she met Kenneth, used to go out with a man who later became Muriel’s husband, a fact that she never forgave her sister, even though he’s been dead for years. It doesn’t seem like a massive revelation, considering that Muriel is only introduced in this episode, and the tension between the sisters pales in the light of the more serious secret that is revealed in the episode, but it shows how long Celia is capable of holding a grudge. She never told anyone, Caroline only found out about it by accident, and doesn’t really know the extent of it, because she never asked. In a conversation with Alan, Celia reveals that she never told anyone apart from Caroline and him about her misery in her marriage to Kenneth either, because she “didn’t want folks knowing”, and the loneliness of it must have been a great part of the extent of her unhappiness.
And Celia has Alan now, she has that happy life that she didn’t have years ago, the one reliable and lovely man who isn’t like the others (and it’s quite lovely when she tells without telling her sister about Caroline being gay), and everyone does only care about her happiness with regards to the wedding; Caroline even goes so far as to take Gillian to the hotel where a really terrible thing happened to her, because it would be a lovely place to get married, and life has been throwing absurdities and ironies at her anyway. She goes into the process of planning her mother’s wedding after finding out that Kate is pregnant, and that she’s started “thinking about the future” now that twelve weeks have passed. It’s a horrible, formal conversation that takes place in her office, about how Kate, as a teacher, asks Caroline, the headmistress, about her future, what is possible in terms of employment, while the subtext in the scene speaks to all the lost opportunities and the lost intimacy between them. They speak to each other as strangers, formally, but Caroline’s face in the scene completely betrays her emotions, since this was supposed to be their future, and their family. It’s a heart-breaking moment, especially Caroline’s “I hope you know me better than that” - the terrifying idea that all their intimacy never meant anything because now Kate seems not to know her at all. She has to congratulate her as her boss for the successful pregnancy, rather than taking part in her joy as her partner.
Afterwards, she and Gillian go to the hotel where her and Kate’s break-up happened (because it struck her as a really nice place for a wedding, which must have been an awful and painful thought to have, amidst all the horror), and awfully ironically, Gillian points out to Caroline that everyone there must think that it’s supposed to be their wedding, which of course is exactly the kind of exposure and publicity Caroline feared when she booked those two rooms, except now it doesn’t seem to matter, it’s just another hilarious irony that life has thrown at her. They’re both drunk, and giggle, but the whole trip is meant to help both of them to deal with what’s happened – Caroline’s break-up with Kate, Gillian’s with Robbie, and the fact that Robbie has a new much younger girlfriend who is about to move in with him.
The episode starts out feeling much more light-hearted than the previous ones, in part because Alan and Gillian seem to get along well again, and Gillian seems so changed just through having the responsibility for “Calamity”; so her and Caroline’s trip to organize their parents’ wedding is light-hearted, lovely, even when they accidentally get so drunk that they have to get a taxi home. Their connection has always been surprising – a genuine exchange of feelings, but constantly and repeatedly ruined, mostly by Gillian’s transgressions. Sometimes it’s easier to tell the truth to someone who is still half a stranger rather than someone who knows you well. Caroline is more open and direct to Gillian about why her relationship with Kate fell apart than she’s been with anyone, and it’s almost like this is the first time she admits it to herself.
Caroline: I blew it with Kate. I really blew it. I only realize now how lovely it was, how precious. And I’ve tried to apologize but she won’t listen. I think she’s decided that I’m bad for her, and there’s nothing I can do, or say. I'm just in a box now with bad written on it. Well, not bad, just arrogant, inept, selfish, repressed, emotionally crippled.
And then of course, in the light of this confession, and asked why things with Robbie didn’t work out, Gillian makes her own, and it’s one of the most difficult moments this show has ever had. She tells Caroline that Eddie was abusive, that she “shed blood in every room in this house”, and that it wasn’t a suicide; like Alan suspected, and thought of her father knowing, seeing through her story, seems to be her worst fear, she killed him, and that’s why she and Robbie could never work – because she took the only family he had, even if it seemed like the only way out of an abusive relationship. She tells Caroline to lift a burden that she’s carried alone all those years, except Caroline isn’t the person she should be telling this (and she doesn't know why she told Caroline; because it was the answer to her question, because she couldn't bear to keep this secret anymore), because they are still, to some extent, strangers, regardless of how possible this confession seems with all the drinks and giggles they’ve shared – so the morning after, in the light of day, Gillian realizes what she’s done, and has no idea how to face the consequences. 

Random notes:

The episode does a good job of dealing with the twelve weeks that have passed; Caroline looks wistfully and sadly at the “For Sale” sign on her lawn as William is leaving – things are changing quickly – and John has been served with the divorce papers, making very clear that her break-up with Kate hasn’t changed the fact that she doesn’t want to get back with him (he’s been living with Judith, who sadly never quite sticks to her ideals).

Caroline and Celia's mirroring gestures in the drive-way scene (and their hug) are quite lovely. Sarah Lancashire and Anne Reid are perfect at playing mother and daughter - it's warm, but still conveying the sense that physical intimacy isn't a strong suit for either of them. 

Caroline: Proud of you.
William: And I’m proud of you.

He also calls Alan “Granddad”. It’s sad to see him go, but Lawrence learns an importance lesson about the value of having one reliable parent, even if he thinks that Caroline is boring (which, seriously, she isn’t).

Alan's friend (Calamity's other great-granddad) is thinking about moving into a house boat that looks like it's going to sink any minute. 

Celia (about how complicated organising the wedding is): Well one of them’s a vegetarian!

Oddest running joke of the season.

Cheryl: I love your jacket. I love the pattern. It’s really CLASSY.

Gillian: Right, Batman, what’s the plan?

It’s hard to work through John and Judith, because this is actually arguably (secretly) a close second to the other horrible revelation: that Judith is pregnant, and John is dealing with it awfully, trying to bully her into having an abortion, getting drunk with her rather than trying to help her to stop drinking. 

Sunday, 15 December 2013

Links 14/12/13


Kabinett Faymann II

SPÖ: 

Bundeskanzler: Werner Faymann
Arbeit, Soziales und Konsumentenschutz: Rudolf Hundstorfer
Unterricht, Frauen: Gabriele Heinisch-Hosek
Gesundheit: Alois Stöger
Landesverteidigung und Sport: Gerald Klug
Verkehr, Innovation und Technologie: Doris Bures
Kanzleramt (Medien, Beamte, Kunst und Kultur): Josef Ostermayer

Staatssekretärin für Finanzen: Sonja Steßl

ÖVP: 

Vizekanzler, Finanzen: Michael Spindelegger
Außenamt, Intgration: Sebastian Kurz
Inneres: Johanna Mikl-Leitner
Wirtschaft, Wissenschaft und Forschung: Reinhold Mitterlehner
Familien: Sophie Karmasin
Justiz: Wolfgang Brandstetter
Land- und Forstwirtschaft, Umwelt und Wasserwirtschaft: Andrä Rupprechter

Staatsekretär für Finanzen: Jochen Danninger

(via Wirtschaftsblatt)

Das Regierungsprogramm auf 124 Seiten
Die Reaktionen von bisherigem Wissenschaftsminister Karlheinz Töchterle und ehemaligen Erhard Busek und Präsident Fischer auf die Abschaffung eines dedizierten Ministeriums für Forschung.
Das Unglück der Länderchefs.
Mögliche Interessenkonflikte betreffend den neuen Justizminister.

Friday, 13 December 2013

Last Tango in Halifax – Let’s live with what’s on the table.

Last Tango in Halifax: 2x04.

We start off right where we left off, with Alan and Celia in the restaurant having lunch, and Celia’s reaction to Alan completing the story that he started telling before they were married; that Gillian didn’t just watch Eddie die, but “finished him off”. He is worried about Celia, who is always hard to read when it comes to reacting to shocking news – for now, she still seems to empathize with Gillian, pointing out that she knows “what it can feel like to be trapped with the wrong person” and that Alan’s actions were “the right thing, the only thing”, but Alan also tells her that bearing that secret is the reason why he’s reacted so violently to Gillian before, because he expects her to be more grateful and courteous, and why he is now putting more distance between them. It’s hard to carry someone else’s secret for them, and now that he is finally happy, more happy than he imagined he could be again, he doesn’t want to spoil it with all the things that have been haunting him for years. There’s more to it, which he reveals later: he hints that he’s had suspicions that Eddie hadn’t tried to commit suicide, that Gillian killed him. This must be a terrible burden to bear, that suspicion about your own daughter, and it explains a lot about how much their relationship unravelled in the course of the past few episodes. 
It’s sad too, since Gillian seems more together now that she carries the most responsibility for Raff’s baby (now called Emily Jane, after a spontaneous trip to the registry office that John initiates after a rant about “men’s rights” because of course he’d be that kind of person), even if her past transgressions haunt her, and she doesn’t actually stand up to acknowledge them – and, as things go, eventually everything falls apart when everyone meets at dinner. John has “immersed” himself into her life for research purposes, since his novel is “set on a farm”, and taking care of the baby is a good excuse that makes him feel useful, which he usually isn’t. John has somehow managed to make himself part of their family, the same way that he is feeding off everyone for the sake of his family saga – but then Robbie comes around and joins them for dinner, apologetic about his reaction to Celia’s revelation about Gillian’s abortion, which goes surprisingly well, until Judith shows up as well – with John’s manuscript in tow, outraged, and after a failed and awkward attempt to find him in Harrogate, where she wasn’t exactly welcomed by Celia (“You’re her, aren’t you? You’re the whore?”). It turns out that the novel that she is writing quite eloquently in-between trips to get more alcohol is also a story about two old people falling in love, and that she was the one first pointing out that the thing happening in John’s family would make a good story. She also first proposed the idea of telling the story from Gillian’s perspective, and John stole some other ideas from her as well.  
It’s an interesting revelation, considering that Judith seemed genuinely delighted to finally meet Alan and Celia, while John has never really expressed any interest in their story at all, and is mainly using this opportunity to get closer to Gillian. She argues that there is a difference between “observing something and making the decision to write about it”, which is valid – she barely ever witnessed any of the events personally, she is the one who seems genuinely invested in the story, while John, apart from writing about Gillian, mainly seems to see this as a chance to get back at Caroline in a literary way. More than that, their fight makes it clear how little John respects Judith – rather than taking her accusations seriously, he asks her whether she’s drinking (which he has, with Robbie and Gillian). Outraged, Judith reveals the other thing that she knows because John told her, that John and Gillian have had sex, and while both deny it, eventually John tells the truth, even if it’s for all the wrong reasons. 
John: You’re clearly not good for her. So why don’t you clear off. You’ve made her life a living hell in the past. Trying to get her arrested when she was her most vulnerable. Yes, I know all about it. And now you prey on her, because you know how generous, good and kind-hearted she is. 
Robbie: Prey on her? 
John: Yeah, well, get lost. She doesn’t need you. She doesn’t want you. She rang me to come over and help because she was at the end of her tether will everything. With all of you. And especially with you. 
Robbie: Is this true? 
Gillian: Some of it. Partially.
It’s hard to admit that John is making a valid point here, because Robbie has made Gillian’s life a living hell for ten years, and it’s hard to believe his recent complete change of heart, or her willingness to forgive him. Gillian doesn’t openly admit that she’s slept with John, but her reaction is enough to make Robbie realize it’s true, and it earns John a black eye. 
In the end, everybody is hurt. Robbie leaves, John gets thrown out of the house by Gillian – but the bad news that one of Alan’s oldest friends has died gives Gillian an opportunity to apologize both to her dad and Celia for her behaviour, even if it’s just a small moment of reconciliation, and later, at the wake, Alan decides to seize the day and proposes that Celia and he get married again, this time with a massive ceremony and all the people that they know. 

While the drama and secrets unfold at the dinner table in Halifax, Caroline takes Kate to a picturesque and romantic hotel, but things start to go awry the moment she checks in, because it turns out that she’s booked two separate rooms for them, and Caroline doesn’t even realize how upset Kate is until she spells it out for her – that it feels sad, embarrassed, old-fashioned and ridiculous, having to sneak around, that one of the reasons why she was so delighted about the holiday was “because it was like for the first time you were happy to acknowledge outside the house that I was your partner”, that, if she had been the one to book the rooms, “the whole point would have been that I got to spend two whole days and nights in the same room as you. That would have been the single-biggest thing that would made me book it in the first place. But obviously for you, that wasn’t a thing.” And the thing is that Kate knows that Caroline thinks she needs to keep a low profile, as someone that people in the region may recognize (presumably to a certain extent she is a public figure as the headmistress of a high-profile school), and has been supportive, but it’s also hard to live with the fact that the person that she loves so much, that she’d do anything for, doesn’t have the courage to be brave for her in that way, as much as Caroline explains that she just panicked and had the intention of just booking one room.  Saying “we can still sleep together” doesn’t help, and Kate doesn’t accept “Because I’m me” as an excuse either, because Caroline has asked her to be patient and wait for her, and this tiny choice that Caroline made when she booked the rooms is now a symbol of everything that Kate feels is wrong with their relationship. It’s the kind of fight that could never possibly end well, because it’s not really about one specific thing, it’s about everything – and cut short by Greg arriving, which is really the worst thing that could happen, because it means that all the unsaid things just hang in the air between them while Kate and Greg exchange an endless amount of anecdotes from their shared history, leaving Caroline completely out of the conversation, while the sky behind them goes from light to dark. So Caroline is fuming, and isolated, and has what seems like hours to get angrier and angrier (likely making up conversations up in her mind, collecting all the little things she could say in return, as you do in that situation), and once Greg leaves for a moment, suggesting they talk about the pregnancy once he gets back, she explodes (in that quiet Caroline way). 
Caroline: I’ll get to bed because I can’t stand anymore of this bloke’s self-obsessed drivel. 
Kate: Okay. 
Caroline: I’m sure neither of you will mind whether I’m here or not? Thought not. Good night then. 
Kate: Good night.
It’s really hard to say if Greg is that unsympathetic or a jerk. Caroline knows that he shares a history with Kate, which she’ll never have (because that’s one of the hardest things of meeting someone, that you can never have met them earlier, that there’s always a part that will inevitably elude you). Presumably, hadn’t she been so utterly furious at Caroline, Kate would have made more of a point to make her feel included, and playing up this intimacy with Greg was one way of getting back at her and feeling a bit better – which is also understandable, but further reason why none of this can end well. 
I think when Kate comes downstairs the next morning to join Caroline for breakfast, she’d have been willing to talk about it reasonably, to try again, but now Caroline is so angry that any kind of conversation becomes impossible. They could still pick up the pieces and figure out what the issue is, but it’s far beyond that point. She came downstairs last night and didn’t find Kate in the restaurant, in the bar, in her room, because Kate was in Greg’s room for a nightcap (and this is significant too - it's always more difficult to get over yourself and try to mend things before it's too late, but sometimes just having a drink with someone that you laugh with is so much easier). 
And the thing is, from anyone’s perspective, there can be no doubt how much Kate loves Caroline, it’s in her eyes every time they’re in the same room together. But then, someone like Caroline wouldn’t just take the idea of her partner having sex with someone else in stride and see it as the pragmatic solution to a problem that it is meant to be, that Kate sees is as. I’m wondering if it would have made a difference if Greg hadn’t been so overwhelmingly loud, because I think Caroline expected someone else based on the assumptions that she’d make about who Kate would be friends with – but also Caroline’s reaction is to the whole situation that she hasn’t coped with yet, and it doesn’t really matter who Greg is, only that Kate is still close enough to him to fill hours with conversation, that he is someone that she trusts to that extent. 
Caroline: Look, alright, I’m sorry, I was a coward, I won’t be again, but I do have to say, for me, if we are going to be parents, this bloke is the wrong person. 
Kate: He’s perfect from my point of view. 
Caroline: I couldn’t go through with it, not with him. He’s… he’s a jerk. 
Kate: He’s one of my oldest friends. Whatever impression you got last night, he’s not a jerk. 
Caroline: I think I’m gonna have to give up on the idea of buying John out of the house. I think it’s unrealistic. It’d just be a burden. 
Kate: Right. I want to get pregnant, I want to have a child, I want to get on with. 
Caroline: Yeah, alright, fine…
Kate: I don’t need your blessing. Not anymore. Not after yesterday. And what you just said, about the house, you were doing it for all the wrong reasons anyway. You don’t want what’s best for me, you never did, you want what’s best for you, all the time. 
Caroline: Not true. I worry about how upset you’d be… 
Kate: You’re too… 
Caroline: If you got pregnant and then lost it again. 
Kate: You're too old to change. It’ll always be about you. Don’t worry about my bill. I’ll pay myself. 
Caroline: Are you dumping me? 
Kate: No. I don’t think so. I don’t think anything ever really started, did it? Couple of embarrassed fumbles. It’d just have been a bit of a odd mess , really. Which is a shame, because I’d have done absolutely anything for you. We didn’t do anything last night but that is still the plan. We’re both going to stay here tonight. 
Caroline: No, look, this was mean to be…
Kate: No, I know what it was meant to be, it was meant to be you and me, it was meant to be my birthday. I was so happy when we got here yesterday, but you blew it. You blew it before Greg even turned up, so don’t blame him. 
Caroline: This is hard for me. 
Kate: Well, grow up, think it’s easy for anyone? Only don’t bother, don’t grow up, not on my account.
I’m not sure which part hurts the most (both of them) – when Kate jumps on Caroline’s remark about the house, that she did it for all the wrong reasons (which she didn’t, but she did it for a lot of reasons, and maybe that’s already hurtful enough), or that last bit that is really just the meanness of frustration and sadness, the “embarrassed fumbles” (which is where Caroline starts to cry). It’s all of Kate’s built up frustration (and it’s this harsh because there’s no word about all the good things, all the reasons why she did wait and was patient). Like the fight between Alan and Gillian, it’s hard to see how any of this can ever be mended or taken back. A week later, Caroline tries to talk to her in a classroom, but Kate leaves, only sharing the news that she and Greg went through with it – “I finished what I came into this room to do. So now I’m leaving it.”

Random notes: 

Ugh ugh ugh (not that I have any doubt that Last Tango in Halifax will mend it, but seeing two people who care about each other so much do so much damage to each other in one conversation is horrible).

“What fresh hell is this?”

This season has a slightly odd way of mixing smaller dramatic storylines in with the greater narrative arcs – the sudden pregnancy revelation and birth, William being robbed and beaten up, Maurice's’ death – that I’m not quite sure what to make of yet. A little bit too much happened in this episode. 

The speech Alan gives Will about confidence is nice though, about gaining confidence by taking risks and “dealing with people that he’s not naturally drawn to”. He tells him that he’s going places while the others who make him feel like an outsider aren’t – which is always a nice sentiment, even if it’s not necessarily true. 

Lawrence and Angus actually do role-play Reservoir Dogs, and spend the next morning taunted by Alan, with a bucket between them. 

I wondered a bit at Caroline’s choice to tell Kate about Celia telling her she could call Alan “dad” if she wanted straight after Kate mentioned when Greg was coming – in a way, her reaction shows a certain reluctance to embrace the idea that families are a more fluent concept now (and also it was an example of Caroline instinctively changing the topic when she doesn’t feel comfortable, and still sort of making a point). Alan presumably at least makes a much better granddad, as seen in his scene comforting William, than Celia’s first husband did. 

John: Listen, I’m talking as someone whose relationship with his children has been really compromised by being married to a mad, manipulative lesbian. 
Raff: I thought it was because you had a fling with that… Judith. 

Ah bless Raff, calling John out on his misogynist homophobic bullshit in such a subtle way. 

John suggests Vita and Virginia as baby names. 

“So what is your novel about, John?”

John is the worst, and one of the things that I want to see happen now, or in the third season (it got renewed!!!) is Judith being really successful and John realizing he will never write an original story unless he gets over himself (because at some point in the past, he must have been likeable or talented enough for Caroline to think he'd make a good husband?)

Calamity Jane is going to stick now, “thanks to deaf granddad”.

John: I’ve made some coffee. 
Gillian: Well done.

Robbie’s rant about the inaccuracy of police procedurals is tongue-in-cheek, considering Sally Wainwright’s other job. 

Caroline explains she panicked in the face of an 18-year old who didn’t know how to spell… Elliott? Eliot? Eliott? Elliot? (as Kate points out, and it makes me feel better about actually having to look this up, the ls and the ts aren’t always obvious - It's Elliot)

Wednesday, 11 December 2013

random mixtape - hope blinds reason thankfully


beth orton | anywhere. andrew bird | the giant of illinois. beirut | mimizan. candi staton | young hearts run free. alice smith | she. the national | don't swallow the cap. thee oh sees | toe cutter - thumb buster. the icarus line | don't let me save your soul. josé gonzález with st. vincent | step out. rhye | open. grouper | cloud in places. julia holter | world

[on 8tracks]

Tuesday, 10 December 2013

The Hunger Games: Catching Fire


Towards the end of the final act of Hunger Games: Catching Fire, Katniss Everdeen, after destroying the safe barrier between the arena (where the games are played) and the world outside (where, as President Snow threatened, games turn into war) – literally breaking through the fake heaven that the Capitol has created – she is being lifted from the ground, fire spreading underneath her, blood on her face. It’s the climactic moment of the film, in which Katniss Everdeen finally completely becomes what she does not want to be: a symbol of the rebellion against the Capitol, a forever reluctant revolutionary, a martyr who survived. 
It’s a climactic moment because the whole film works towards it. While Katniss has returned to District 12, to the lonely Victor’s Village (just imagine Haymitch spending the past decades there, all on his own), she is still struggling with nightmares and horrible visions of the games she barely survived. There is a sense that she isn’t entirely connected to the world she knew anymore, her economic position elevating her and estranging her at the same time, her mother and sister changing and growing on their own terms, without her noticing. The fiction she created in order to make it out alive, and to save Peeta, is haunting her. It has taken on a life of its own – what was a very personal act, a desperate attempt to skew the odds in her favour, is interpreted as an act of rebellion both by the inhabitants of the districts, desperate to change their terrible living conditions, and the President of the Capitol, who realizes the power that such a symbolic figure has, even if the citizens celebrate her romantic love. Katniss is eager to run away into the woods, escape, survive on her own with her family and Gale, but he reminds her that this wouldn’t change the circumstances of everybody else. Already, having become a symbol against her own will means a responsibility that she isn’t quite ready to face, because she never asked for any of it. 
But like the title suggests, it’s already gotten too out of hand for anyone or anything to stop it. On the victory tour, visiting the other districts and finally the Capitol, Katniss sees the effect that she has had. It takes troops – eerily faceless in their armour – to keep the masses in order, who rally behind the quiet sign of their allegiance with what they’ve turned Katniss supposed temporary victory by changing the rules of the Games, into. She witnesses an old man being brutally shot, while President Snow’s threat hangs over her – she is supposed to make him believe the fiction of loving Peeta, turning the rebellious gesture into one of love, stopping the inevitable. It’s an impossible feat, and the film makes this point quite brilliantly, contrasting the deprivation in the districts with the decadence of the Capitol, whose inhabitants are completely ignorant of the price that their luxury demands. 

Eventually, after an attempt to turn the people against Katniss Everdeen fails (because rebellion may not be the first thing on her mind, but she is fiercely protective of the people that she loves) Plutarch Heavensbee (Philip Seymour Hoffman), the new Head Gamemaker, suggests a different strategy: to dismantle the symbol Katniss Everdeen in the arena where she was created. It’s the most powerful moment of the film, Katniss hearing President Snow declare that the 75th Hunger Games will be special because each district will send a male and a female winner to compete. She knows she’s the only female winner that Twelve has ever had, that she will return to the most horrible place imaginable, and her reaction isn’t heroism or defiance, it’s sheer terror. She knows that there are no winners, only survivors, and as Haymitch told her, you never quite leave, even if you survive, because the Capitol drags you back into it year after year, as a mentor, as a public figure, with eternal reruns of all the things that now haunt you in your dreams. But now it’s a literal return, and an inevitable one, and the only thing left to her is try and save Peeta, and she fails at that as well. 
Whom she truly loves was never the compelling question of the story, even if the film predictably (if sadly, since the first part avoided it) puts more focus on it. The interesting question is if real emotions are even possible if your very survival depends on faking them well, if your entire life is fear and anxiety and panic. Katniss is being moulded, both by people she knows and by unseen ones, and remaining herself in the process, or thinking of herself as a person who can make choices about her future beyond running away and surviving, seems almost impossible. Reading the sincerity of feelings is a difficult task anyway in a world that is so filled with distrust – it takes Katniss a moment to realize that Effie Trinket’s fear for her life and insistence that they are a team is absolutely genuine, because previously, the only person from the Capitol whose emotions she trusted was Cinna, who wears his heart on his sleeve (both Elizabeth Banks and Lenny Kravitz once again deliver brilliant performances). When faced with the alliance forged by Haymitch behind her back, Katniss mistrusts everyone out of principle, but not everyone is who they seem to be.
A friend of mine pointed out that the violence in the arena never feels that terrible, even if it’s children killing children, because it looks like a videogame – which is the point, and even clearer in Catching Fire, with the contrast of the real, non-staged violence that Katniss witnesses before – against the inhabitants of the district while she’s on the tour, against Gale, against Cinna, right before she’s thrown into the Game. It’s the necessary fiction, the aesthetics necessary for the audience in the Capitol, to hide what is actually happening, the brutality of it. The way the Games are mastered create a lie about death, to make the citizens more comfortable in their homes. The spectacle distracts from reality. At the same time, it’s necessary for the story (and maybe sadly so) for Katniss’ hands to remain clean, so to speak, so she doesn’t kill unless it is in some way justified, even if it is by the fiction of careers being inherently evil (even if it could as well be argued that creating an institution to deal with the reaping is a completely reasonable and rational reaction by a society, at least it gives the children the best possible chance of survival). The truth about the Games are the nightmares that Peeta and Katniss still have, Haymitch’s incessant drinking, the other winners from previous games, most of them seeming broken in their very own way. The Games pit them against each other, and their very function is to keep the districts from thinking of each other as allies in a similar situation, but Katniss is told to remember who the real enemy is, beyond the flickering magnetic shield that she eventually breaks through, with the help of a newly forged alliance. 
Finnick Odair (Sam Claflin) and Johanna Mason (Jena Malone) are perfectly translated from the books – Finnick’s full story hasn’t been told yet, but he hides the scars from the games behind sarcasm – and Johanna Mason is like Katniss Everdeen, through the looking glass, utterly broken but also invincible because there’s nobody left she can lose, so she has no one to protect, and can defy the Capitol more openly and more fearlessly than the others. It's a terrible realization for Katniss, that the only way to have an edge over the overpowering enemy is to lose everyone she cares about. Johanna's rage is turned outwards, and more political than Katniss’, but she's also a testament to what happens when the brutality of the Capitol meets a strong and stubborn will. 
It’s a good ending as well, beyond the being lifted, because it’s a sobering moment when Katniss realizes that she isn’t in control of anything anymore, that even Haymitch used her, keeping important information for her, using her as a pawn in a much bigger game that will eventually be revealed – and her home has been razed into the ground in revenge for a rebellion she never meant to start. Catching Fire ends with Katniss, moving on from grief over the loss of her home to defiance and wrath. She will still be a reluctant symbol, but at least the fight is her own now – and President Snow’s war has just begun. 

2013, directed by Francis Lawrence, starring Jennifer Lawrence, Josh Hutcherson, Woody Harrelson, Jenna Malone, Sam Claflin, Liam Hemsworth, Elizabeth Banks, Paula Malcolmson, Stanley Tucci, Lenny Kravitz, Philip Seymour Hoffman, Willow Shields, Donald Sutherland, Lynn Cohen. 

Sunday, 8 December 2013

Das Lied zum Sonntag

Thao & The Get Down Stay Down - Holy Roller



It's too hard for habits
My patience is done with me
I want to live in times that touch
I want to stay when my temper beats

Links 07/12/13

Saturday, 7 December 2013

Last Tango in Halifax - Are we kidding ourselves?

Last Tango in Halifax: 2x03.

Both Alan and Celia and Kate and Caroline had plenty of obstacles across to get to the point where they are now, married and living together in the same house respectively, but most of these burdens were external – Alan’s precarious health, Celia’s reaction when finding out about Caroline’s feelings – what they are facing now is the difficult process of figuring out what their future together will look like, how their individual ideas (and obligations) about how their lives should look fit together. Alan and Celia, at least for now, don’t really live together; they still consider the situation in Harrogate temporary, and are torn between the fact that Gillian needs her father’s help, now more than ever because of Raff’s still nameless newborn, that Caroline can’t afford the house without Celia’s contribution, and that both of them find the idea of having a place entirely of their own quite appealing. Whatever choice they make, someone inevitably is going to be hurt by the outcome. On the other hand, they’ve both spent years of their lives living mostly for someone else, not following their dreams, with Alan carrying Gillian (since she was a teenager, as we find out this episode) and Celia being trapped in a loveless marriage, so the new bungalow with the gorgeous view does seem like they something they both thoroughly deserve, and could afford if they disregarded the financial needs of their children. 
Kate and Caroline are living together, but while Caroline is still processing the fact that Kate wants a baby, Kate has been making plans for years now, long enough to be able to rattle off a long list of baby names (which is absolutely adorable and sad at the same time) when Celia asks her what name she’d pick, and to accidentally reveal, at least enough for Celia to ask Caroline about it, that she and Caroline are thinking of having one. It’s a complicated situation especially because Kate is so sure and determined, and Caroline isn’t, but they are both certain that they want to spend their lives together. 
At the same time, Caroline still seems hesitant to fully share her feelings with her mum, always assuming that Celia won’t like it if she talks about her life with Kate in detail, which I think is part of the reason why she articulates her thoughts differently to Celia than she does to Kate – it’s not that she isn’t honest with Kate, but that she frames things differently for her mum. When she tells her mum that the chances of Kate actually getting pregnant are minute, and that she intends to ask Kate to focus on her career, it sounds much harsher than when she actually does talk to Kate about it, and puts more focus on the fact that she’s worried about Kate will emotionally cope in case it doesn’t work out. 
Kate: What’s the matter?
Caroline: What’s the matter is that you’re gonna get pregnant possibly with someone else insofar that you can’t get pregnant with me, but beyond that it’s less fine. There are things that I haven’t… processed, yet. I assume I don’t need to spell them out.
[…] You do know that whatever way is kind of unlikely, don’t you?
Kate: I know the odds aren’t great, yet. I want to try though, Caroline, and I’m terrified of leaving it any longer.
Caroline: And what if it doesn’t happen?
Kate: I’ll deal with it.
Caroline: You’ll get upset.
Kate: Well… it’s better to try and fail again, before I give up for good, isn’t it.
Caroline: You’ve got a fantastic career, you’ll be the next head of languages, you will, no contest. You could be a deputy head in a few short years, you’ve got what it takes, Kate.
Kate: I want to be somebody’s mum.
All four of them are facing their challenges head-on and bravely, meanwhile John, without anything to anchor him, just stubbornly holds on to whatever is in his reach, and doesn’t run away quickly enough. The fact that he is writing a thinly-veiled account of what is happening in everyone’s lives, stealing stories that aren’t his to tell and adding his own bitter feelings about Caroline into the mix, is just another aspect of this – lacking any kind of imagination or drive of his own, he can’t help but feed off other people’s lives. Caroline’s take-down of him once she finds and reads his manuscript is hilarious. He is literally living off the people he’s surrounded by, both economically and in terms of his writing, and the way he’s been chasing Gillian is part of that as well, because he’s turned her into a fictional character in his novel, a fictional character that has been existing in his head way before he even started writing again (and from what Caroline reads of her description, the main point here is that she’s so unlike his wife), and he is now selfishly pursuing that version of her. “I still think about you all the time. I started writing again.” is supposed to sound romantic, that he’s made her the heroine in his novel, but in fact it’s the opposite, because he is using Gillian, and Gillian isn’t in any position to refuse him – because she doesn’t have the emotional maturity and constantly seeks out unhealthy relationships. 
Additionally, she feels cornered at the end of the episode. With Ellie running away, presumably because she’s overwhelmed by Raff asking her if they should marry (Alan indicates that they never were very serious), Flossie is now entirely Raff’s and Gillian’s responsibility, with help from Alan and Celia, and Raff is still thinking about leaving school and getting a job because he thinks that’s the responsible thing to do, and Celia, unintentionally, reveals to Robbie that Gillian had an abortion when she was fifteen – and Robbie realizes that this took place when they were seeing each other, and leaves.  Gillian is absolutely furious at Celia for telling Robbie, which is understandable, and Celia is very genuinely sorry, even though she had no way of knowing that this would be the outcome, but the main result, apart from Robbie leaving, is that Alan comes to a decision in the course of the following argument: he reflects on how his life has always been determined by what Gillian needed, and chooses to stop putting her first in every decision he makes. 

Gillian: God, I don’t recognize you anymore, looking at dozy big bungalows that you can’t afford. Chucking your money away on flashy cars that eat petrol and bugger up the environment, not wanting anyone there when you get wed, me, Raff, your mates, why? I mean that’s so not you. And, you know, I have to be frank, dad. I don’t like it. 
Alan: I’m aware of that. I’m increasingly aware of it. Do I tell you something, I’ve spent my life watching you go after unsuitable beggars, one after another, you know what me and my mother always used to say..
Gillian: Don’t you say stuff about my mum…
Alan: Oh Gillian, she always knows how to pick ‘em. Like it was funny, but it weren’t. And have I ever fallen out with you about it, ever? All the stupid stuff you did, all the bloody dozy stuff Eddie did? No, I were here, all the time, whenever you needed me. You know what I’m talking about, so don’t you dare. Don’t you dare say anything about Celia to me.

As hard as the fall-out between Gillian and Alan is (and as irreconcilable they seem – but then, Last Tango in Halifax is also a show about hope, while avoiding clichés), the argument actually ends up breaching the gap between Gillian and Caroline, and they have their first productive conversation since Gillian shared that she’d slept with John. 
Caroline: How is the baby ?
Gillian: It’s… it’s a baby.
Caroline: Yeah well, babies are, aren’t they?
Gillian: I don’t know what the hell I’m doing. I don’t know whether I’m coming or going, Caroline, I don’t know which way’s up.
Caroline: You’re tired. I can hear it in your voice.
Gillian: I’m sorry I had a go at your mother, but conversely, on the other hand, I’m sorry she put me in a position where I had to.
Caroline: I know, I know, I do know, Gillian. I don’t suppose there’s anything I can do.
Gillian: Make excuses for me. Tell her I’m mental, hormonal, round the bloody bend.
Caroline: Will everything be alright with Robbie?
Lawrence: Which one’s Robbie?
[…]
Gillian: Is my dad alright?
Caroline: Yeah, yeah, I will keep an eye on him.
Gillian: I appreciate you ringing.
Caroline: Call me, anytime
Gillian: Thanks.
Caroline: Bye.
It’s a reminder of how they started before all of Gillian’s resentments, her inability to face the true reasons for her dad’s apprehension, ruined their relationship. But still, when John comes by and offers to help with the baby, she doesn’t turn him down – she tells him how Eddie died, and her part in it, except John is writing a novel in which she is the heroine and recklessly feeding off other people’s story, so it’s predictable where that’s headed. John is definitely fond of whatever he’s made up in his mind about her, but “do think we could… be good for each other.” should come with some kind of eerie and worry-inducing sound effect. 

At the same time that Gillian shares her past with John, Alan tells Celia, and finally not being the only person carrying that burden frees him. “Now we’re buying that bungalow and I’m putting all that behind me.”

Random notes: 

Celia was on fire this episode!

John: Hello Celia. 
Celia: Oh, I thought you’d moved out.

Celia: Gillian calls her Flossie, which to me you see is more what you’d call a King Charles Spaniel. Alan calls her Emily Jane, but that’s just so he can make it rhyme with stuff. Harry calls her fufu tinkerbell or something, but he’s an idiot.

Kate: The year 12 are doing King Lear tonight. 
Celia: That’ll be something to slit your wrists about.

Up to the anaphylactic shock, that couch scene between Kate and Caroline was lovely, especially because the second season hasn’t really shown them being intimate yet. Also Caroline is pretty amazing in a crisis, to no one’s surprise. 
John: You know people always think you’ve based characters on them and you haven’t.
Caroline: And can we leave Alison’s dusty negress right out of it, or Matthew Waterhouse will be getting his withering, shrivelling, starved to flight pink little bollocks right off.
John: Right, fine.
[…]
Caroline: A sullen sinewy forty something woman with the purposeful frame and character of a sixteen year old boy. Oh, mummy isn’t the only gay in the village. I’m sorry, I’m gonna have to ring Gillian.
The worst thing about John’s novel is that it would probably sell really well. 

Gillian: That was your auntie Caroline. But right now it’s just you and me kid.

In spite of the very serious conversation that followed, I giggled a little bit about the indication that Alan and Celia could spend the rest of their lives having luxurious lunches with wine if only their kids weren't dragging them down. 

Lawrence: Do you want to come around and watch Reservoir Dogs and get pissed and trash the place?

(is it okay to say that Lawrence is just plain terrible and not give him the benefit of the fact that a lot of teenagers sort of are and grow out of it?)

Kate asked Greg in a mail if he’d be on board and he is, and the problematic thing here is that Kate and Caroline are moving at completely different speeds (and in part I like this story, because it isn’t about whether either of them loves the other less – but also I’m just really invested in both their happiness). 

Monday, 2 December 2013

Das Lied zum Sonntag

Pearl Jam with Sleater-Kinney - Keep On Rockin' In the Free World



(Fair to say that words aren't words to convey how awesome it is to see Sleater-Kinney united on stage again)

random mixtape - not the thing you keep.



sleater-kinney | hot rock. mirah | bones & skin. the books feat. josé gonzález | cello song. alela diane | the way we fall. perera elsewhere | bizarre. pollyn | there's only one way out. arcade fire | you already know. screamin' jay hawkins | i put a spell on you

[on 8tracks]

Sunday, 1 December 2013

Reading List: November.

Non-Fiction: 

Tony Judt: Postwar.
Hannah Arendt: Eichmann in Jerusalem.
Barbara W. Tuchman: The Proud Tower. 
Chantal Mouffe: The Return of the Political.
Inga Muscio: Cunt.

Fiction: 

Donna Tartt: The Secret History.
Sheridan Le Fanu: Carmilla.

Films: 

Night Moves (2013, Kelly Reichardt).
Medeas (2013, Andrea Pallaoro).
Hannah Arendt (2012, Margarethe von Trotta).
Stories We Tell (2012, Sarah Polley).
Frances Ha (2012, Noah Baumbach).

Shows: 

Suits, Season One, Two.
Boardwalk Empire, Season Four.